I wanted to take the time to tell you everything I left behind by making this tremendous transformation. I want you to see how all of these experiences with obesity lowered my confidence, hope, and self esteem. A lifetime of obesity impacted every aspect of my life and truly changed how I lived and saw the world. Being obese always left me wondering what it would be like to be a “thin” person. How would it feel to be able to not only run but run fast? I used to have dreams in which I would run continuously without getting tired. In the dreams I would feel almost weightless and would truly glide like a freed soul. The separation from my overweight body in these dreams was a relief and an amazing escape from the truth. The reality that I was gravities best friend; constantly pulled down to earth by my excess weight. I also dreamt about actually having a girlfriend, which to me was an even more distant reality then running fast. When I was obese I faced a great deal of rejection by girls who just wanted to be “friends”. I used to convince myself that there was always hope, however this hope diminished with every rejection and I was soon left relying on my dreams for any hope of success. When I had these dreams I remember trying desperately to hold on to them and prevent myself from waking. In the dreams I would convince myself they were real and when I woke from them, I would be left sad and defeated.
In the following posts I am going to give you a glimpse into my past and into the experiences that knocked me down physically and emotionally. I am not telling you these things so that you will feel sorry for me. I am telling you them so you can see how far I have come and how much I have conquered. I want you to see that success is possible no matter how bad things get and no matter how impossible it may seem. Know that although I let these experiences keep me down; I ultimately rose up to erase the past, create my own destiny, and make my dreams a reality. And yes you can too and You Will!
After each negative obesity experience that occurred in my first life,( yup I believe I was given a second chance and have created a second life for myself) I will post a positive one I have experienced in my new life. The first experience will be posted Wednesday February 25th.
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